Well, I haven't written since September of 2014 and I titled that one "settling in". Seems like a theme has developed of us constantly settling in to new places, because today as I write, we are settling in to a place. It's almost as if God is saying "JK!! Don't get comfortable". Which is fine, but sometimes can create a false sense of stability. Maybe I need to just start finding my stability more in God.
Lately my relationship with the Lord has felt very dreamy. And by dreamy I don't mean pretty and fantasy like, but I reminisce on how our relationship used to be and I long for it again. I'm not exactly sure whats holding me back from the whole waking up early, being healthy, quiet time old version of myself, but it's taking a lot more disciple to do it now then it did back then. Maybe because I'm on auto pilot and I feel fine and I'm not in need or want and I just am not in a place where I feel like I need to be closer to the Lord. Which is so horrible. and so lukewarm and probably disgusts jesus.
when in reality i have so much i need to draw closer to him about.
the salvation of my brother
my health and preparation of my body for a baby
katey and patrick - katey's health and pat's job
dan and rach going to angola
my parent's relationship
daves job
my future
right now I feel distracted because dave turned the tv on to watch sports and I wanted to journal but felt it pass.
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