I'm reading this devotional book by shauna neiquist called "Savor" and it's pretty good, but can easily be geared more towards a married woman with kids... and not really someone who lives in the city. the devo today was her talking about how she wants to be the kind of person who wants to be around her parents often, for her parents to be around her kids often, and also to be around for her siblings. She asked us to think about the last time we made space for deep encounters with family.
isn't this everyone's perfect dream? Who wouldn't want this? I think the devotional for me today is to continue to submit to praying for my biological family and the people I consider family in a way that doesn't seem prideful. I still get my feelings so hurt over who does and doesn't keep in touch with me and who says they'll call and doesn't. so when I think about them, I have ill feelings, emotionally sad feelings usually. and as much as I want to be there with them, i'm also glad that I'm not and I trust god's plan for me here.
for my biological family, lord today i pray for brandon. god he believes he is fine, and i really don't think there is much to "correct" about his lifestyle except for all the ways he doesn't glorify you. with his words, the ways he treats people, his money, his drinking and drug issues. he is a good kid who needs to grow up and travel. more then anything he needs to get to know you. he needs to know what this life is supposed to be about and start living it.
lord i also pray for my parents. I pray that you help bring them closer together in their faith. it has got to be hard on my mom for her to see my dad always be the one in the limelight. i think she would say she's fine with it, that he can have it all because it lets her do her own thing, but i think that is a lazy cop out. my mom is so sweet and personable and friendly and i pray lord that you help my dad envelope her in the things that he's a part of and i know this includes you also softening her heart to say yes to the invitation.
lord i pray that you use me and my parents and Pop in whatever way possible to help bring Mom to a loving faith in you alone. i think education has steered her in the wrong direction and she needs to know that above all information to be found and read, there is a saving faith in you alone that all of her other rituals and religions can't offer.
lord, for my friends back home, I forgive them. I ask for forgiveness also for not keeping in very good touch with them, with Boo and Abby and the Whatleys and those. I forgive Mandi for not keeping her word over and over again. I forgive Brittany Wheeler for saying one thing and acting another way towards me. lord i ask that you forgive me for blaming you for this sometimes too. for blaming you when it's hard and when people don't pursue a relationship with me. I ask for mercy, a lot of love and even more grace to continue to get used to this. please help me change my perspective if that's what needed.
and lastly lord, I thank you SO much for Maggie and Dave. Dave is such an amazing hard worker and I know this is a huge adjustment for him also. he is handling it so well and i pray that you help us get into the swing of things, even if it means i lead the whole 'getting up early thing'. and lord, you are so perfect in all of your ways and you have blessed me with maggie. my dear friend from high school that I didn't keep in touch with well. she's living up here with her husband brian who is a lawyer and she has a precious 2 year old son Jude. we had dinner with them las night and dave and brian got along great. maggie is so sweet and I am so thankful for her being here and for us reconnecting.
lord, you are so good. I trust you completely with everything. our friends, our lonely time, our work, our school, our finances and our health. everything. you are the giver and the taker of life and i promise this week will be different. we will wake up, eat breakfast, watch news, do bible study and get an early start to our day.
No comments:
Post a Comment